New @ Pink Fuel: Crystal V2

Hello gentle readers!

Pink Fuel has released Doll V2. She comes with 8 eyesbrow options(black, red, blonde, brown & recolorable in light, med & dark), 5 lip options(Neutral, Red Gloss, Pink Gloss, Orange Gloss, Clear Gloss), 10 eyeshadows(Blue, Green, Noir, Pink, Purple,Sepia, Soft Black, Tears I, Tears II, White) & two blush options(cute blush & remove blush). Doll also features a new body. All appliers have been updated to match.  For  more on the list of features, check out Mochi’s Flickr.

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  • Hair-LeLutka(Thora Charron)-Jerry in SummerTime
  • Skin-Pink Fuel(Mochi Milena)-Doll V2 <Crystal> – Pure (redbrow), Eyeshadow(White) & Thin Gloss
  • Dress-Tee*fy(Azure Electricteeth)-Gina Bodyco-Mint @ Collabor88

Collabor88 September: Secret Store & Hucci

Hello there gentle readers.

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Collabor88’s ‘Miami Electric’ theme is brilliant!. This is by far my favorite round of C88 to date. I mean, who doesn’t love neon?.

I thought I was going to hyper ventilate from seeing The Secret Store’s Lola cropped sweater & Annette Peplum skirt.  Why?. Flamingos is why!. I love love love flamingos!. Maylee, I bow down to you.

Hucci’s Wonju sandals were another huge winner for at C88. Eboni rarely makes a shoe that I do not want.

Check everything out below.

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Jewelry Fair 2014: 22769

Hi there gentle readers.

PaleGirl Productions Jewelry Fair 2014 is right around the corner and if you love accessories as much as I do, you’ll be in heaven.

22769 is a Sponsor as well as a designer for this years Jewelry Fair. Each of the accessories shown below have different color choices to pick from, but i’m using the ones that I personally loved the color of.

Ammunition, Cascade & Ever Spinning Wheel

Fabric Choker, Fracture & Royal Couple

Serpentia, The Phoenix, Skull and Roses

This years fair will have a strict script policy limit, so going in with little on(including huds etc) would be the best thing. I myself use my alpha layer(s) from the SLink Physique to go totally invisible. People are there to shop, not watch you work the catwalk.

For everything you want, or need to know, visit PaleGirl Productions website.

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  • Hair-Exile(Kavar Cleanslate)-Blown Away in Venetian
  • Jewelry-22769(Paco Pooley)-Ammunition(Silver), Cascade(Pink), Ever Spinning Wheel(Silver), Fabric Choker(Purple), Fracture(Pink), Royal Couple(Silver), Serpentia(Pink), The Phoenix(Silver), Skull and Roses(Pink) @ Jewelry Fair 2014 on the 13th
  • Dress-Maitreya(Onyx LeShelle)-Vintage Lace Gown-Bridal

Baiastice & Exile for C88 September

Hello there gentle readers.

Collabor88 opens, as always, on the 8th of each month. Baiastice is participating with some gorgeous items. So far im loving September.

The Caged top comes in 8 colors, the Ives skirt comes in two versions, plain & pattern with 8 for each & the Cuore clutch comes in 8 colors with different hold options. Check everything out below!.

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  • Hair-Exile(Kavar Cleanslate)-Locomotion in Melt @ C88 on the 8th
  • Top-Baiastice(Sissy Pessoa)-Caged in Tangelo & Green @ C88 on the 8th
  • Skirt-Baiastice(Sissy Pessoa)-Ives in Fuchsia & Plain Azure @ C88 on the 8th
  • Clutch-Baiastice(Sissy Pessoa)-Cuore in Amber @ C88 on the 8th
  • Hands-SLink(Siddean Munro)-Flat & Elegant

Static

Hello gentle readers

Maitreya has some gorgeous new releases. Totally in love with the crop top & fern soft pants. They were the big winner for me; easy & effortless. Plus the fit is fabulous.

I don’t know why but lately I have been into hairs with hats. Eaters Coma has some gorgeous ones and hair 51 was a perfect fit for me. I love the floral texture options(there’s just two) in the hud.

Check everything out below

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  • Hair-Eaters Coma(Kumii Yoshikawa)-51 in Light Platinum Blond
  • Top-Maitreya(Onyx LeShelle)-Crop Top in White
  • Pants-Maitreya(Onyx LeShelle)-Fern Monochrome Soft
  • Heels-Blah(hOShi Kimono)-My Duper Pumps-Salmon
  • Hands-SLink(Siddean Munro)-Elegant1
  • Feet-SLink(Siddean Munro)-High

GoFundMe

Hi there gentle readers.

I’m doing something that I have never done before; a GoFundMe page. I have opened up allot about my personal life(as in the last two posts) to you all. I wouldn’t have made this page, if it wasn’t needed.

My computer is basically my life right now and that life is slowly starting to stop working and crashes often. What I have currently is a laptop that is 4 years of age. I would much rather have a desktop that I could just simply replace a part, instead of having to replace all of it when it starts going.

I’m asking you all for help. I know that money doesn’t grow on trees & many cannot afford to give and believe me I understand that. Even if you can just share my GoFundMe page link with others, that would be a huge help. I know the amount seems exceptionally high, i’m looking at having one built and that was the minimum quote from a lot of places for a decent spec build.

My GoFundMe page is in my Real Life name so don’t be to shocked(lol).  My GoFundMe link.

FaMESHed & Uber: Baiastice, Exile & Fishy Strawberry

Hi there gentle readers.

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Exile, Fishy Strawberry & Baiastice are participating in the September rounds of FaMESHed & Uber. FaMESHed opens up on the 1st of September(tomorrow) & Uber is already open for its Apocalypse themed round. Check everything out below!.

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Picture 1

  • Head-Fiore(Sanya Bilavio)-Jasminev1
  • Hair-LeLutka(Thora Charron)-Francine
  • Dress-Baiastice(Sissy Pessoa)-Rivia in Green @ FaMESHed September 1st

Picture 2

  • Head-Fiore(Sanya Bilavio)-Jasminev1
  • Hair-Exile(Kavar Cleanslate)-Day The World Went Away @ Uber
  • Lingerie-Baiastice(Sissy Pessoa)-Apocalypse in Nude & Yellow

Picture 3

  • Head-Fiore(Sanya Bilavio)-Jasminev1
  • Hair-Exile-(Kavar Cleanslate)-Day The World Went Away @ Uber
  • Dress-Fishy Strawberry(Fae Eriksen)-Saloon in Beige & Black @ FaMESHed September 1st

Rather Be

Hello again gentle readers.

When I posed Saying Goodbye on August 26th, I thought I wouldn’t be posting again, but im coming back & want to explain why. I will start with somethings many of you do not know about me.

I suffer from intense depression & anxiety. I have tried to commit suicide numerous times. The last time put me into the ER and thus into hands that wanted to keep track of me to insure ‘recovery’. Since then I have been seeing a psychiatrist which even my best friend didn’t know about(till now, surprise!). I don’t go all of the time, just once and a while when I need to offload stuff onto a professional who can just be honest without the sugar coating. Today was a day that I went in for a check up as they never really force me to come in, they just ask that I make an appointment every 3 months to talk to somebody & update them on my progress or lack there of. I told her(my psychiatrist) about my recent revaluation to leave SL behind & push forward without looking back. To my surprise she wasn’t happy about but actually warned me against doing it. See, I have obsessive tendencies, so just cutting things off in the past has been a very bad idea. I often come back and I latch onto it more than I would have before. In the short time ive gone to her, I have been 100% honest to the point of letting her shine a light into any little part of my life. She knows how I am and how my brain works, almost better than I do. Even though I have little desire to login and feel lost when I do, its more than possible I might just sink back into that hole it took me so long to climb out of.

What she told me to was keep the door open. Don’t close it, don’t make it so you can’t come back if you really need to. Allow myself to breathe without worrying if I relapse what people will think of me and how that will affect me. I’m an incredibly sensitive person, always have been. Most of my decisions in life have been motivated by wanting people to be pleased with me. I know what she is saying. I understand it. It doesn’t change my happiness to still come and go in SL. I think I wanted to close the door so much, to stop by myself from pulling away from RL, but I don’t want to. I can have both and before I didn’t realize that. I had convinced myself it had to be one or the other. My hubby doesn’t care what I play on the computer, as long as im happy(& fix dinner).

I’ve never been good with others opinions of me. I am a rash go with my emotions, often crazy, type of person. I hide allot from people to protect myself. I am not perfect by far. I hope by sharing a piece of me that you didn’t know, you might understand me better. I can stand between both Worlds and feel that peace.

Rather Be

Smile; its easier than explaining why you’re sad.

Saying Goodbye

Hello gentle readers. This may be a lengthy post so I do apologize.  This will be a final post for me.

For the last 5 years, I have poured a large portion of my life, energy & time into SecondLife. This is my story.

When I started SL all those years ago, I was lacking a sense of purpose or structure in my life. I felt like I was always blowing in the wind, trying to hold onto something to anchor me. In short, I wanted stability & SL gave me that. I knew when I logged in who I was, what I was doing & I was setting goals around that. I would spend hours upon hours logged in. I would forget to eat, would barely sleep & cut off most of my human contact. I fell into a hole that I just couldn’t seem to climb out of. It look me nearly 3 and a half years to cut back on my extreme use of SL. I know now that is was my way of  escaping from the Real World; my safety net, my defense mechanism. I was safe from all the hurt, the pain, the frustration. Yet even in this sense of safety, there was no peace, no real feeling or emotion it provided me that would help me grow, mature. It would be the people I met within this Virtual World that would be the key to my lock.

I have had many friends come & go in SL. You meet somebody, you friend them. It takes a great deal of time to actually forge a real relationship with people though. It’s not as easy and hitting the ‘add friend button’.  For me there has only been one person that I can honestly say is my heart and has guided me to becoming a better person than I was yesterday; Kristy. Without you, I wouldn’t be where I am today. You’re truly my best friend, my angel.

I am getting married in October, on Halloween. While I have been doing small bits of planning, it suddenly hit me that, what I was without for so long, I had found. I found the peace, the safety, the love I needed; my anchor. I have never been happier. Everything that I once needed from SL, was now filled. I have had RL relationships while still being heavily into SL, but this time, this love has been so different for me. For the first time, I am honestly happy. Our love is easy, effortless and carefree. I can trust him, knowing he would never hurt me int he ways I have been so deeply hurt before.  I didn’t need to login to feel like I was accomplishing something anymore. I would take two week breaks from SL forgetting to sign in & when I did, it was to grab a blogger pack to store for later blogging. Years ago, that would have been impossible. Now its my reality.

I think of it as an arcade game that you love & can’t wait to play. You save up your coins in a bag, as many as you can, so that you can play it over & over again. Yet when you reach into the bag for another round, its empty and you fold the bag back up, put it into your pocket and leave. I had already folded the bag & put it into my pocket, I just hadn’t realized it was time to leave. My time is up in this Virtual World; as I shut off the lights and reach for the door I feel, not a sense of defeat, but a sense of peace. I can look back on my times here & smile without feeling sad. Closing the door on this part of my life is not my end, but my beginning. My story has only just begun. Goodbye my friends.

“We’re born naked & the rest is drag”-RuPaul

Collabor 88 August: Magika, Hucci & Tee*fy

Greetings again gentle readers.

Collabor88 is a few days into its August round, whose theme is Odyssey. In this post im showing off a few of my favorites for this current round.

The Aphrodite dress from Tee*fy was a definite home run in my book; it fit perfectly and honestly its my favorite dress to wear right now.

Magika has not participated in an event in over two years but has come back strong with Harmony. The hair also includes an optional forehead braid that’s resizable .

Hucci’s Naxos sandals are gorgeous!. There are silver or gold versions for purchase and I went with silver as I am more fond of it than gold.

Check Magika, Tee*fy & Hucci out below!.

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  • Hair-Magika(Sabina Gully)-Harmony-Color Pack 03 @ Collabor88
  • Dress-Tee*fy(Azure Electricteeth)-Aphrodite in pink @ Collabor88
  • Sandals-Hucci(Eboni Khan)-Naxos in Nude @ Collabor88
  • Skin-Pink Fuel(Mochi Milena)-Harley with Shimmer Eyeshadow Light Smoke + Wing (monolid) & Lipstick Barbie Pink
  • Eyes-{SONG}(Funeral Plutonian)-Frost-Aqua
  • Feet-SLink(Siddean Munro)-High